"A big secret I have, is that for 4 years my boyfriend was unfaithful to me with my best friend. I wanted to hate them both and did my best to show it. I cut them out of my life and outwardly I gave the impression that my boyfriend was a bastard and that I was happy to be rid of him. My secret is that in the next 4 years deep inside I loved him very much, and kept an eye on him, was jealous of his girlfriends etc. I compared my own boyfriends with him in all sorts of ways. At last we got together again, are now engaged and have a child together."